Ups, downs and forwards

The sunlight hits a cd in the window that cast its reflection onto the ceiling and becomes a heart. Right in between me and Lorena, in our white bare shoulder’s dresses.

Two angels and a pink heart.

I feel like I’m coming in for landing soon.

I’ve been riding an emotional roller coaster all week. I have been up and down and my stomach has been inside and out. I’ve felt unbalanced and shaky. Trying to cling on to something but not knowing what is safe anymore. Close my eyes and resist or open my eyes and let go?

I know this feeling. It always happens at this point.

But I will try not to speak of ends and beginnings. Because coming here, and even now, leaving, will never be considered an end for me.

I will go home. Unpack. Make a bit of money. Re-pack. And get back on the roller coaster.

The greatest, most scary and nerve-wrecking ride is just around the corner. And I will keep my eyes wide open.