On/Off
The power just came on after an hours’ cut. It was pretty nice. I lit candles around the apartment and took time to just lie on my bed and listen to the wind. But then the thoughts blew in and stirred up a storm again. I sometimes wish I could switch the power off in my head. Cut the cord to my emotions.
But we are energy transmitters with ongoing correspondent thoughts and feelings, connected somehow to a relentlessly running engine.
Thoughts and feelings are so entwinded it’s hard to tell which triggers which.
A negative thought produces negative physical effects on your body regardless if an event is taking place or not. Smiling is an example of an action that no matter the outer environment or circumstances always produces a feel good vibe, making us interpret the surroundings more brightly.
It is also proved that the mind can not separate what we see with our eyes open and what we see* with our eyes closed, making me wonder what reality is more real; the one we experience inside, with all its stimulation or the one outside, where we merely observe. Maybe it’s a mix of both.
(*Our eyes are nothing but a camera lens. It makes no judgement. Seeing is therefore debatable because it is followed by interpretations of our brain – so that we distinguish and “know” what we see. Although, “knowing” is something entirely different.
I didn’t mean to go so deep into this subject. Where was I? Oh yeah, here…
In this room. With candles burning on my window pane and the city street lights generating power for us not to get lost in the dark.
I took the “49 kronor” post off. I was in a bad state of judgement and I don’t want to risk the wrong people reading it. It made my dad call though to ask if I needed to borrow money and Ryan to offer to pay for the drink we are having on Sunday with his regular wit; “Scandinavian equality be damned”
I bought a silky peacock patterned dress for the money I re-borrowed. You only live (this life) once.
Oh, I really do like your blog babe! You’re great personality always shines through and your writing skills makes me jealous! I think you are a very gifted and talanted person, upon that one of the nicest people I’ve had the fortune of meeting in this very confusing city. Love to you!
Sandie darling! I don’t know if I should write this in English or Swedish…I almost deleted your comment as it ended up in spam…might have something to do with the name of your new blog…;)
TACK TACK TACK!! *hugging you*
I know it’s hard and that is what I told you the first time I met you. Don’t succumb to the facade. You have a profound personality and you have been through more shit than people take in a life time (me for example, what do I know of struggle?)
All I can say is don’t compare. You are unique and talented and I appreciate the trust you showed me.
I’ll be cheering and rooting for you (and hopefully seeing you – for let’s say – not coffee, wine, walks or sushi…then a movie? Sthlm Film Festival is on! Let’s)
Kärlek.
Great, great advice. Sandie…listen to your friend Helen on this one. “Don’t compare…”
and then your throw the aspect of dreaming into the mix. now, what’s more real? how many times haven’t i woken up from a beautiful dream that felt so real that it just simply cannot be untrue.
“I took the “49 kronor” post off.”
Please give to the United Negro Pizza Fund. : }
And here you are again…showing the wisdom that greater than your years. Keep it up…I know you will.
I was having this same set of thoughts tonight as I was cleaning up the dishes after dinner. My mind just started going crazy. Except maybe we’re lucky because we’re aware of it. I know there are many, many people who get stuck in those thoughts…and the vicious cycle begins.
Way to go Helen…
Thanks a bunch Andy! Thoughts are the most powerful tools we have. They can build castles and they can erase them in a blink of an eye. Thoughts may seem free but they are controlled by patterns, like a mechanism working on routine.
The key must be to go straight to the main engine man and say; “this is the result I wanna see. Now let’s get to work”
Think again. Think right.
Live large.