What if I get to choose?
A friend tells me my hopes are too high.
Not that I should “settle” or anything…but that, well, maybe my future husband won’t both be a great cook and musician. We laugh of course.
I want to tell her that it’s not about food and music, those are just metaphors.
It’s about being playful.
It’s about being curious.
It’s in the desire to want to fill your everyday life with moments of value.
Another friend tells me I have an eye for beauty.
But also, that I “beautify” things.
(Serves the old saying: beauty is in the eyes of the beholder)
Yes, I know, I have a tendency to spot those little glimpses of wonder…;) But that doesn’t mean, I am not aware of pain and suffering, and the shadow-side of life. I have been down too you know. I have my doubts that I struggle with, my own obstacles.
Beauty, for me, is not all blossoming trees and clear blue skies.
Beauty, for me, is in the perception, on the inside,
above and beyond what meets the eye.
A third person tells me I seem to get what I want.
That somehow, things turn out the way I imagine.
He also tells me, that I live in a fantasy world.
I’m sensing that some advice have no other purpose than to keep me from getting disappointed. Well meant maybe. But it leaves me with an unspoken expectation that life will not go my way, that my dreams are separate from my reality and that life, eventually will let me down.
But what if it doesn’t?
What if it does the opposite?
What if life not only goes my way, but shows me new ways, takes me to new undiscovered corners of myself, that my reality is better than I could ever have imagined, and that I am responsible for lifting myself up, again and again?
What if it’s about being alive, instead of living?
That would leave me no other choice, than to embrace it all, wouldn’t it?
Besides, aren’t we all creators of our own “reality”??
What a lovely outlook on life you have.
Thank you! So far, so good 😉
This is exactly what I feel every day. Every day since 3rd grade. My life has never been horrible. But I have had hard days. I’ve had to find the silver lining along the clouds so much that now my eyes instantly revert to it. That doesn’t mean I don’t see the cloud. It means that I choose to look at it in the best way possible.
I live in Washington, and I’ve gotten to go to the UW campus many times. But each time I go on the tour I am breath taken. UW isn’t known for being beautiful, although people do say it’s pretty. But whenever I’m there, I’m literally gasping from the glow it emits. I want, and do, run in the fields, roll down the hills. Because I have to be a part of the beauty. I don’t see how others can’s see it.
And it’s not just there. It’s everywhere.
“People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be.” -Abraham Lincoln. We create the joy in our lives.
What if it’s about being alive, instead of living?
That would leave me no other choice, than to embrace it all, wouldn’t it?
Even if there was another choice, I’d still take this one.
Hello Justice Puppy! 🙂
Thank you for your contributing comment!
“I don’t see how others can’t see it” you say. This line truly makes me smile because it sort of confirms what I’m trying to say. That there is no ONE reality, but endless ways of looking at things.
“My life has never been horrible. But I’ve had hard days”, another great perspective. There is a new day every day, a new chance in every moment, a possible beginning in every word we choose, or action. Only when we neglect these possibilites to do better, to be better, life becomes horrible.
Hope to see you around!
The world beats its many fists on the stone walls of my castle
But I was not concerned; the walls are high and the stone solid,
For even in my dark times I built these walls the world so desperately wants to take down.
This is not to say I built this keep love out, only hate
For my drawbridge is still down, and still open is my gate
Walls to keep hate out, why not? As long as the gate is open and drawbridge is down I am sure love will find its way in 🙂 Love is smart like that!
Thank you!
Underbart inlägg!
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This is right where I am at right now; to live my life fully and brilliantly; to believe in any dream that I have; to live, live, live!!!!!!!!!!!!! I absolutely love this post…….
And indeed you live!! I hear it in the tone of your writing! Forward Vanessa!!! xx